I'm so sick of this my state of being. It seems that I haven't tried hard enough. It seems that I have really fallen into a deep pit and climbed 6 years upwards, slipping back down, but mostly up directing and penetrating. Then, people realized what I'm going trough and now there are helping hands on the edge of the pit.. And I could reach them. I want to get out of this pit, and I want myself back. Now is the time to take the last step. I can already see the sunlight which I thought was lost. I want to do everything I can for me to heal. I've learned so many things. I'm not going to 'try' anymore, I'm actually gonna get things done and get myself fixed. This is the year of change. I can feel it in my heart. This year will be good, as long as I give good things happen to me, and remember to enjoy them. I may no longer be afraid of losing everything. I have to stand on my own two feet. I want my own life and be independent.
Oon luvannut muille että mä parannun. Nyt mä lupaan itselleni saman. Haluan uudelleensyntyä ihmisenä ja kehittää itsestäni sellaisen ihmisen joka oon aina halunnut olla. Kauniin, itsenäisen, rakastettavan ja lämpimän ihmisen joka seisoo vakaasti omilla jaloillaan ja auttaa muita.. ja teillä on etuoikeus seurata mun matkaani!
I have promised to my loved ones that I shall recover. Now, I promise myself the same thing. I would like to be reborn as a human being and to develop myself into the person that I've always wanted to be. A beautiful, independent, gracious and warm person who stands firmly on its own feet and helps others.. and you guys have the privilege to follow my journey!
Hugs & Kisses